So turn around you're not too far to back away, be who you are, to change your path go another way. It's not too late you can be saved. If you feel depressed with past regrets, the shameful nights hope to forgets can disappear. They can all be washed away by the one who's strong, can right your wrongs, can rid your fears, dry all your tears and change the way you look at this big world. He will take your dark distorted view and with his light He will show you truth and again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl. ~Johnny Diaz

Thank you Lord that you never close the door on us. You are there waiting on us to reach for you, to just cry out that we can't do it alone and we need You. When we choose to go down a path that is not Your will, You care for us and You call to us to come back home. I know in my imperfections I fail you daily and you pick me up and dust me off and set me back on the path again. I want to stay on the path and not stumble so often, Lord. Guide my steps and provide firm footing for each leap I take. Carry me and my children through the places that are just too wide for us to cross and protect us along this journey. Keep calling to me so I can know the voice of my Lord and follow you. Make Yourself visible to my boys in their everyday life. Let them see you and know you are with us and providing each step of the way. Help me to see life through their eyes and guide me to be what they need from me each day. Help me to raise them with a full knowledge of your Grace and Love.

I will live to carry Your compassion to love a world that's broken...

I will live to carry Your compassion to love a world that's broken, to be Your hands and feet. I will give with the life that I've been given, and go beyond religion, to see the world be changed by the power of Your name. Your name is a shelter for the hurting. Jesus Your name is a refuge for the weak. Only Your name can redeem the undeserving. Jesus Your name holds everything I need ~Lincoln Brewster

May my life be used for You Lord and Your purposes... Even when I stumble, may you be glorified in my recovery... Please use this trial to help others who are hurting too Lord... May they be drawn closer to you because of something they've seen in me and my pain... I know that none of this will be wasted and you will use every last drop of it for your good (Romans 8:28). Help me to use the words You've given me and to share freely my heart with those I come in contact with. Speak through me and use me Lord. I am nothing without you...

I know the scripture, I've known the songs.

I know the scripture, I've known the songs. I sang the words from my hollowed heart, but You've spoken softly through the storm. I've heard Your voice and I've felt the calm. I stand only because You've given me faith to walk, only because You carried me. You carried me through it all. And I believe, Yes I believe, You'll carry me all the way home cause mercy covers all... ~Building 429

Lord, since I was a small child, I have known you were with me always, but these last few months have proven Your constant care for me. I feel a peace that can only be explained by Your Grace and Mercy. Through all of the heartache and flames of a life turned upside down, You have carried me to a safe place and held me close. Thank you Jesus for being who You say You are... The Great Comforter, my shelter from the storms...

O Lord, come back to us!

O Lord, come back to us! How long will you delay? Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love, so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives. Give us gladness in proportion to our former misery! Replace the evil years with good. Let us, your servants, see you work again; let our children see your glory. And may the Lord our God show us his approval and make our efforts successful. ~Psalms 90:13~17

I trust you Lord that your promises are true and you will weave happiness and joy into my tapestry along with my trials and tears... Make my life beautiful in your sight...

Why are you striving these days?

Why are you striving these days? Why are you trying to earn grace? Why are you crying? Let me lift up your face, just don't turn away. Why are you looking for love? Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough? To where will you go child, tell me where will you run? To where will you run? ~Tenth Avenue North

Such a great reminder to me these days... Trying to just keep my eyes on Him and letting Jesus put all of these pieces together, the missing ones I can't find and broken ones just don't fit when I try... I'm thankful Lord that You know what the big picture looks like and for restoring and placing the pieces that just don't make sense to me anymore.

Cries of my heart through a journey like no other...

I've never blogged before, but so many people have told me to keep a journal through this time in my life. I am horrible at sitting down and writing in a journal, but I can freely type my feelings, so here goes... After spending 18 years of my life with the man I married, I find myself single, raising three young boys and broken. I never thought my live would take this turn and I never wanted to be in this place, but here I am. Although I am broken, I am held together by my Savior's loving arms. I may have lost a husband, but I am still His bride. This blog is where I hope to post the cries of my heart along the way and to watch how the Lord takes these broken peices and creates a masterpiece. Thanks for coming along this journey with me.